For once I'd like to be able to be a selfish decision maker. So now as I write that, does that mean I believe that people who can easily make decisions are selfish? Nope. I don't believe that at all...in fact, I admire that so much in people. I just believe that if I make a decision that would benefit myself and my enjoyment, it is selfish. I don't know why. I think as I get older, I analyze my childhood as being the root of my problems. And I hate to blame childhood of that. I will blame it, but I won't let that be my excuse.
So I ask for advice and opinioins many times in the last while, for fear of making the wrong choice. And if I make a mistake so what, right?
I need to get my head back on my shoulders and for once not care about what others think. I'm pretty sure I got that from my mom. As a teen I always got lectured, what would the neighbours think... and now it's haunting me.
I need to indulge in life a bit more.